The General's thoughts

You'll Never Leave My Heart / California Bloodlines

2009-09-07T22:08:00.000-07:00

I never thought I'd be a man that cares just like I doI knew that when I first saw you, my doubting days were throughu got a certain something that I never saw beforeI knew it was for real when u stepped in through that doorAnd when the day does come when you and I departYou'll be the one who's leaving cause you'll never leave my heartAnd when the day does come when you and I departYou'll be the

All My Life / Live Your Life

2009-04-18T01:16:00.000-07:00

[Verse 1 - Jay Rock]I was on the block right, wasn't in my right mindJust a young nigga, hustlin', tryna get minesMovin' with the 9 double mNiggas like "You don't really wanna fuck with him"Yeah, young teenager, 'fatuated with paperYeah I had to get it, cause momma, she wasn't ableBlack and white TV set, no cableForties in the fridge, chicken noodles on the tableI wasn't born with a silver

Connect For

2009-02-17T19:17:00.000-08:00

Connect For: The sake of my beloved mentorConnect For: Those exposed to rain when it poursConnect For: The benefit of every last fanWho raised a hand on your command, let’sConnect For: The chance to support the amateurConnect For: Revival of the vibe of ‘The Score’Connect For: The sake of the kids, if nothing moreThey can’t afford to face another closed door, let’sConnect For: The prospect of

Just Dance / Ante Up

2008-10-28T00:23:00.000-07:00

Red oneConvictGaga (oh, yeah)I've had a little bit too muchAll of the people start to rush. Start to rush by.How does he twist the dance?Can't find my drink oh man.Where are my keys, I lost my phone.What's go-ing out on the floor?I love this record baby, but I can't see straight anymore.Keep it cool what's the name of this club?I can't remember but it's alright, I'm alright.Chorus:Just dance.

Squeeze Me / Candy Pop

2008-10-14T15:29:00.000-07:00

But you make everything alright, when you hold and you squeeze me tight.But you make everything alright, when you hold and you squeeze mex2You make me feel so nice, when I’m around with youWake up in the morning and ill spend my whole life with youThe sweetness of your smile helps away with all of my fears.If it should all go wrong my life shall come to tearsI've never been so deep into anyone

Pretty Buildings

2008-10-09T00:20:00.000-07:00

I will dive into my sleepAnd I dream of the pretty buildings.Wonder what she's doing nowAnd whether she's still living.Telegraph your points of viewAnd Sheppard me from silence.Sitting in this fit of rage,I fall down from my pedestal.I don't wanna feel this low again.I ain't gonna steal your flame again.I don't wanna feel...Cause you know it hurts like hell!So come out of the closetLet's talk

Bright Spring Morning

2008-06-30T02:22:00.000-07:00

The time is right to beginLets get going once againFor once in your life just let goI'm getting sick of everythingTired of what the next day bringsWhat I need is for you to follow my leadThe sun is shinning bright outsideI think I'll go for a rideI plan not to ever returnLets run away from here for goodForget this dusty neighborhoodThe open road is calling and begging for usGo roll down the

Where Have You Been / Don't Start a Band

2008-06-10T21:44:00.000-07:00

You called me up last night in tears And said you missed me after all these yearsWell I’ve been waiting here so long, I’ve gotten over it since you've been goneYou called me late last night again And said you're finished with your new boyfriendAsked if you could come back home So sorry that you left me all aloneYou say you love me, love me again but if you love me- where have you been?You say you

Straight to Hell / Fly Girl

2008-04-06T01:03:00.000-07:00

My clothes don't fit me And my friends don't like meAnd this furniture is giving me a rashI don't have credit And i know I'll never get itAnd I'm pretty sure I'll end up all aloneI'm gonna be drunk and flat brokeI'm gonna be tired, old and bitterAnd really messed upCause this behavior is gonna get me nowhereBut straight to hell, oh yeahStraight to hellGirls wont ride me And the boys wont fight me

Nantes / In The Mausoleum

2008-03-09T17:08:00.000-07:00

Well it's been a long time, long time nowsince I've seen you smile.And I'll gamble away my fright.And I'll gamble away my time.And in a year, a year or soThis will slip into the seaWell, it's been a long time, long time nowSince I've seen you smileNobody raise their voicesJust another night in NantesNobody raise their voicesJust another night in Nantes~Nantes by BeirutSo let's recap the past

I Go Crazy

2008-02-08T18:36:00.000-08:00

Hello girl it's been awhileGuess you'll be glad to knowThat I've learned how to laugh and smileGetting over you was slowThey say old lovers can be good friendsBut I never thought I'd really see you,I'd really see you againI go crazyWhen I look in your eyes I still go crazyNo my heart just can't hide that old feelin' insideWay deep down insideOh baby, you know when I look in your eyes I go

Asleep

2008-01-13T04:19:00.000-08:00

Sing me to sleepSing me to sleepI'm tired and iI want to go to bedSing me to sleepSing me to sleepAnd then leave me aloneDon't try to wake me in the morningcause I will be goneDon't feel bad for meI want you to knowDeep in the cell of my heartI will feel so glad to goSing me to sleepSing me to sleepI don't want to wake upOn my own anymoreSing to meSing to meI don't want to wake upOn my own

Pullin Me Back

2008-01-03T03:04:00.001-08:00

Every time I try to leaveSomething keeps pulling me back, me backTelling me I need you in my lifeEvery time I try to goSomething keeps telling me that, me thatEvery thing's gonna be alrightEvery time I try to leaveSomething keeps pulling me back, me backTelling me I need you in my lifeIt was meant to beYou were meant for meSo that means we gotta make it workIt was all good at first,Spending money

Fantastic

2007-12-08T05:26:00.000-08:00

I'm alright, I'm alright, I'm alright, I'm fantastic [2X]I'm all...Nine years of lovin you, that's now flushed down the drainSix years with a bundle of joy, the last two was the painToo immature to handle love, we was just playin gamesYou used to say I was your everything, now you can't say my nameI never thought that I could survive, without you in my lifeIf you was wonderin about how I'm doin,

Someday

2007-11-04T02:36:00.000-08:00

SomedayWhen my life has passed me byI'll lay around and wonder why you were always there for meOne wayIn the eyes of a passerbyI'll look around for another tryAnd'll fade awayJust close your eyes and I'll take you thereThis place is warm without a careWe'll take a swim in the deep blue seaI go to leave as you reach for meSome sayBetter things will come our wayNo matter what they try to say you

Hunger

2007-10-17T02:19:00.000-07:00

The Fox you lug over your shoulder in a dark sack has cut a hole with a knife and escaped. The sun lightens, makes you think you are stronger as you walk back to your small cottage through a forest that covers the world.By Billy CollinsNot much has happened over the past month. School, work, debate. The usual. Small stories pop up daily, but none worth me writing down. I've been doing a lot

It's Beginning To Get To Me

2007-09-15T16:33:00.000-07:00

I want somethingThat's purer than the waterLike we wereIt's not there nowIn eloquence and angerAre all we haveLike Saturn's ringsAn icy loop around meToo hard to holdLash out firstAt all the things we don't likeOr understandAnd it's beginning to get to meThat I know more of the stars and seaThan I do of what's in your headBarely touching in our cold bedAre you beginning to get get my pointThey're

Lillian

2007-09-02T16:57:00.000-07:00

The place I used to live, made me feel like a touristI couldn't coexist with the cold and suspiciousWhen the last remaining light was starting to filterIt seemed the perfect time to step into the futureYour heart is a grave to be perfectly honestYour mouth's a smoking gunAnd you smile while your twisting the knife in my stomachUntil everything is goneTake all you can from meI've got weak

Back To Me

2007-08-12T04:03:00.001-07:00

If you would just come back to me I would be so good!Put your trust back in me the least I think you should.We'll call it my pathology so I misunderstood!A bit selfish I should be if I could change I would.See it on my face!All I wanted was a friend To look in me to comprehend.All I wanted was to fly How could you sit and watch me die?All I wanted was you there Your cruelty was my despair.You

Atlantic

2007-07-30T02:41:00.000-07:00

It's been so long, and tin cans and string for yearsIs all that we've known, could it be you're really here'cause my eyes are open, and everything still moves in slow-motion,Breathless and blue, and behind your eyes the seaOceans of light envelop meBut things can't be as they seem, I'm so far from homeThis must be another dream, but my eyes are openAnd everything still moves in slow-motion,

Maybe This Time

2007-07-24T05:26:00.000-07:00

Having spent your entire life Exactly where you are tonight In the valley between intent and deed, You must have mastered this, The fragile art of a good excuse, The little things that get you to believe.That get you to believe.So listen, I'm not trying to prove anything at all here, But don't you think that maybe, this time, you were wrong?You've spent your entire life quick-tongued and always

The day after

2007-07-15T05:12:00.000-07:00

No song today. I don't think there's a song that can put it into focus. The wedding was yesterday. It's 5:30am right now and I can't sleep. I have so many thoughts running through my head and I'll attempt to put them into some sort of order or something. I don't know. DreamsMy dreams have pretty much been nightmares. I dream a lot, in fact I dream just about every night and can remember a

Make You Smile / Weatherman

2007-06-26T23:22:00.000-07:00

The last time I saw you, you turned awayI couldn't see you with the Sun shining in my eyesI said "Hello" but you kept on walkingI'm going deaf from the sound of the freewayThe Last time I saw you, you turned awayI couldn't hear you with your voice ringing in my earsDo you remember where we used to sleep at night?I couldn't feel you, your always so far awayThe first time I saw you, you turned

In Between

2007-06-17T12:42:00.000-07:00

Let me apologize to begin withLet me apologize for what I'm about to sayBut trying to be genuine was harder than it seemedBut somehow I got caught up in betweenLet me apologize to begin withLet me apologize for what I'm about to sayBut trying to be someone else was harder than it seemedBut somehow I got caught up in betweenBetween my pride and my promiseBetween my lies and how the truth gets in

Battle

2007-02-27T00:01:00.000-08:00

I used to guzzle 40's, and own a beat up CaddySince the hood still love me, I'll turn the heat up daddyI went from mackin fly honies on the trainto straight relaxin on the beach, countin money gettin brainSoon as you rappers get a chance you wanna floss a lotYou buy a iced out watch because it cost a lotThen you in the club, stylin with doughProfilin with hoes that we boned, a while agoYou

Running Up That Hill

2007-01-27T23:58:00.000-08:00

It doesn't hurt me.You wanna feel how it feels?You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?You wanna hear about the deal I'm making?You You and me And if I only could,Make a deal with God,And get him to swap our places,Be running up that road,Be running up that hill,Be running up that building.If I only couldYou don't want to hurt me,But see how deep the bullet lies.Unaware that I'm tearing you

You Could Be Happy

2007-01-07T15:15:00.000-08:00

You could be happy and I won't knowBut you weren't happy the day I watched you goAnd all the things that I wished I had not saidAre played on lips 'till it's madness in my headIs it too late to remind you how we wereBut not our last days of silence, screaming, blurMost of what I remember makes me sureI should have stopped you from walking out the doorYou could be happy, I hope you areYou made me

Mr. Brightside

2006-12-31T23:37:00.000-08:00

I'm coming out of my cageAnd I've been doing just fineGotta gotta be downBecause I want it allIt started out with a kissHow did it end up like thisIt was only a kiss, it was only a kissNow I'm falling asleepAnd she's calling a cabWhile he's having a smokeAnd she's taking a dragNow they're going to bedAnd my stomach is sickAnd it's all in my headBut she's touching his-chestNow, he takes off her

Can't Catch Tomorrow

2006-12-11T23:50:00.000-08:00

I'm sure I've seen this look beforeDone a thousand times and a million moreHow many lies did he tell this time?How many times did he cross the line?It won't help me but I have to askIs there something real that's behind the mask?Something true we don't know about?A little faith in amongst the doubtAnd maybe someday you will growMaybe someday you will knowMaybe someday you will end these tears and

Scars

2006-11-29T02:05:00.000-08:00

Drunk and I'm feeling downAnd I just wanna be aloneI'm pissed cause you came aroundWhy don't you just go homeCause you channel all your painAnd I can't help you fix yourselfYou're making me insaneAll I can say isI tear my heart open, I sew myself shutMy weakness is that I care too muchAnd our scars remind us that the past is realI tear my heart open just to feelI tried to help you onceAgainst my

A Town Called Hypocrisy

2006-11-20T00:45:00.000-08:00

Can you take this broken boy?And put the pieces back as one?Though he has all of his toys...He is never having funBecause it's not enoughNow we're growing upWe are giving upWe are moving onBecause its not enoughWe were growing upWe are giving upAnd I won't hear what you say so...Save your sympathyWho do you think you're fooling?Everything is dead!Now you welcome me,To a town called hypocrisyCan

I hope you voted!

2006-11-08T00:06:00.000-08:00

ultppb (5:25:38 PM): speaking of votingultppb (5:25:44 PM): duncan asked me if we were voting for the president todayWell I finished presenting all my presentations, I'm so glad to get those over with. With the majority of my class points now in, I can relax a little more for the next couple of weeks and will have lots of time to finish some small side projects I had in mind. Hooray for free

Blood

2006-10-29T21:07:00.000-08:00

I will forgive but I won't forgetAnd I hope you know you've lost my respectYou better watch outIf you don't know what's going on around youYou better think twiceBefore you fly off the handle and lose itYou better join usBefore you get lost in the shuffleYou gotta rise againstThe demons that are gonna try and hold you downCause I'm not a pawn for you to play in your fucking gameI've got dignity

Hard to Concentrate

2006-10-23T23:35:00.000-07:00

Hustle, bustle and so much muscleCells about to seperateAnd I find it hard to concentrate andTemporary this cash and carryI'm stepping up to indicateThe time has come to deviate andAll I want is for you to be happy andTake this moment to make you my family andFinally you have found something perfect andFinally you have foundDeath defying this mess I'm buyingIt's raining down with love and hateAnd

Slow Cheetah

2006-10-16T00:24:00.000-07:00

Waking up dead inside of my headWill never never do there is no medNo medicine to takeI've had a chance to be insaneAsylum from the falling rainI've had a chance to breakIt's so bad it's got to be goodMysterious girl misunderstoodDressed like a wedding cakeAny other day and I might playA funeral march for Bonnie BraeWhy try and run awayI know a girlShe worked in a storeShe knew not whatHer life

Music of the Night

2006-10-13T00:22:00.000-07:00

Night-time sharpens,heightens each sensation . . .Darkness stirs andwakes imagination . . .Silently the sensesabandon their defenses . . .Slowly, gentlynight unfurls its splendor . . .Grasp it, sense it -tremulous and tender . . .Turn your face awayfrom the garish light of day,turn your thoughts awayfrom cold, unfeeling light -and listen tothe music of the night . . .Close your eyesand surrender

Rolling around in my mind

2006-10-10T16:57:00.000-07:00

"From low to WHOOOAAAA"-Clea, describing the speed settings on a vibratorSome interesting things have happened the past week.Sports:Cowboys lost. BOOOO!Sharks have won their first 3 games. YAY!!!!Yankees got knocked out. LAUGH!!!! How can you be the highest paid team in sports and lose in the first round. (I don't like baseball but this is just funny)School:Tests, tests and more tests.

Defcon

2006-10-01T23:47:00.000-07:00

"We knew the world could not be the same. A few people laughed, a few people cried. Most people were silent. I remembered the line from the Hindu scripture, the Bhagavad Gita: "I am became Death, the destroyers of worlds." I suppose we all thought that, one way or another. "-J Robert OppenheimerNot much has happened the past couple days.Cowboys won 45-14 .San Jose finished the preseason 6-2.

Nothing But The Truth

2006-09-26T23:57:00.000-07:00

"If you always tell the truth, you'll never have to remember anything."-Mark TwainWell this weekend passed with out much whoopdeedoo. Monday was nice. I have to give an impromptu speech. He gave us each 2 random words, 1 of which we had to pick and give a speech about. I ended up with nature and divorce. I could of easily gone with my parents divorce, but I wanted to use nature as a spring

Restless Nights

2006-09-24T00:25:00.000-07:00

"No woman is worth the loss of a night's sleep." - Thomas BeechamBeen having a lot of intense dreams lately which have kept me from going to sleep till dawns first light. I need some sleeping pills.Thursday was nice, shot some pool with Collin and Duncan. I won 4/5 games. Everytime we've gone to play pool I've won the majority of games. I'm not sure if it's a sign that my

OMGWTFn00b HAXXXXXXXXXXX, I'm done

2006-09-20T22:56:00.000-07:00

"One isn't born one's self. One is born with a mass of expectations, a mass of other people's ideas, and you have to work through it all." - V.S. Naipaul Today I had to give my external self collage presentation. It's a collage of people and groups who I associate my self with and who have influenced my life and have ultimately played a part in making me who I am. It felt odd to think of

YAR!! IT BE TALK LIKE A PRIATE DAY

2006-09-19T23:57:00.000-07:00

"You lily-livered, barnacle-bottomed, chum-swillin', kelp festooned, rusty hooked, fish-sniffing, weevil-eatin', figurehead-fondlin', hornswogglin', albatross-hugin', bigle-belchin', poop-swabbin', seaweed-smoking, porthole-pluggin' son of a sea cow!"-Me (I pretty much had to use my entire pirate cursing vocab to make that one, although I still have a few more in the bag)It's September 19 and

A week over due

2006-09-19T00:05:00.000-07:00

A conference held by president bush.Reporter: "So what did Iraq have to do with 9/11?"Bush:"Nothing, nothing"Today was a long day. I gave my personal narrative speech. I spoke about how I got kicked out of UCI. I know I hit the class hard but I didn't prepare well enough and it wasn't as power as it should have been. Other people gave great speeches too about being pregnant in high school,

Nostalgic Moments

2006-09-18T00:26:00.000-07:00

"Sentimentality is the only sentiment that rubs you up the wrong way." - W. Somerset Maguham This past weekend nothing much happened. I shot some pool. Did some reading. Played ALOT of dota and really sat on my ass alot. Basicly, i wasted the past 3 days of my life. Ouch! I better cut back on my gaming and really focus on reaching my goals.Dallas beat Washington 27-10. The

A lesson is learned

2006-09-15T17:51:00.000-07:00

"Eloquence is the art of saying as little as possible but making it sound as much as possible." - Evan EsarYesterday I had my creative writing class and I was totally blown away by it. The stories people shared were problably the best collection I had heard in that class. One girl shared a story about finding her brother dead from a heroin overdose (based on real life). Another

Biology, Neroscience, and other painful subjects

2006-09-12T23:52:00.000-07:00

"Glamour: the indefinable something about a girl with a big bosom." - Abe Burrows "The major civilising force in the world is not religion, it's sex." - Hugh Hefner I'll post up interesting quotes before my posts from now on.Today both my classes covered alot of biology and anatomy. My psychology class was alright since we did talk about a few interesting aspects of the human

from BBQ to 9-11

2006-09-11T23:44:00.000-07:00

"Mission Accomplished" - George W BushOn saturday we had a bbq at Peng's house. We cooked sasuage and made hamburgers, jon added a ton of seasoning turning regular cheeseburgers into salt burgers, I didn't have one. We also tried grilling bacon which subsiquently caught on fire, GG Andy for that brilliant idea. I bought a 6 pack of IBC cream soda, love that stuff. The guys lit it up, me and

Proactive

2006-09-10T20:48:00.000-07:00

A quick recap of the past couple days.On tuesday night I fell victim to food poisoning from under cooked korean bbq made by my mom. I ended up going to the ER that night and getting an IV with some pain killers. I spent 5 hours there but it was totally worth it. They sent me home with some meds and after a few days i felt fine. I missed a few of my classes and will have to work to make up the

Marilyn Monroe

2006-09-03T21:28:00.000-07:00

"Kissing Marylin Monroe is like kissing Hitler" -Tony CurtisI watched a special on people who had taken pictures of Marilyn Monroe. It was interesting to see how people reacted to different pictures and how she reacted to different pictures taken of her. I always thought she was cute but never understood what made her special. Yea, she was the sex symbol of the 50's but why. After looking at

It's Opening Day, in college football.

2006-09-03T00:05:00.000-07:00

So UCLA beat Utah 31-10, w00t.USC beat Arkansas 50-14, meh.Cal got crushed by Tenessee 18-35North Western beat Miami of Ohio 21-3, but it's Miami of Ohio so this really shouldn't count.and Purdue beat IU 60-35, but no one cares =PMy bet with Elizabeth has got me a bit worried since I learned UCLA's star running back graduated and is now in Jacksonville =(. The game is Dec 2nd. Hopefully justice

I like boobs and Vans =)

2006-08-31T23:34:00.000-07:00

"His 'donkey punch your mom' stats were boosted by that last die you failed to roll"-Chugworth AcademyRecently alot of people have started playing D and D (Dungeons and Dragons) While I don't really have that much interest in it, Chugworth's spoof of it has gotten me interested. I already came up with a charater name, Tittyfuck McGee and my class would be DJ pimp masta. I would not only

The Internal Self, what ever that means

2006-08-30T23:15:00.000-07:00

"You have to decide: Do you want to make things happen or do you want to watch things happen? It's been my experience that most of the people who watch things happen are the ones who are usually wondering what just happened."-Peyton ManningIt's a good quote.I had to give a speech about a collage that describes the internal me. I found it really hard to make since I really am not sure who I am.

2006-08-25T02:20:00.000-07:00

WOWSo the last time I posted was before I left for China. Alot has happened. I obviously went to China which I will post a recap of soon. The Canes won the Cup, the Heat won the NBA. Isreal vs Lebannon. etc etcWEATHER!Really, all I have to say right now is that it feels good to be back in the USA. I missed So Cal weather so much and it feels great to be back in it. I wouldnt trade this

2006-06-03T00:51:00.000-07:00

So San Jose got eliminated by Edmonton 4-2. Very Sad.Summer has been good so far, but short. Leaving for China in 12 days.Got some friend requests from people graduating HS on Facebook. Time flies. I remember when I was first started an account on it. Actually it was Luis who started one for me. I can't believe I'll be 21 in 6 months.My dad sent me this email about Age by George Carlin:Do you

2006-05-01T00:14:00.000-07:00

YES!!!!!!!SAN JOSE WINS! We're going to the next round where we will either face Calgary, Colorado, Anahiem or Edmonton. We'll have to wait till tomorrow of possibly wednesday to see who we'll face. Right now I'm confidant no matter who we plays next, we can beat.Several other teams have punched their ticket to the next round including NJ, Ottawa and Colorado.Updated Playoff Standings:(1)

2006-04-28T12:28:00.000-07:00

NHL Playoff Update. I'll be trying to update every other day or at least the day after a Sharks game.East:(1)Ottawa vs (8)Tampa BayMy pick: Ottawa in 5Jimmy's: Ottawa in 4Current: Ottawa leads 3-1(2)Carolina vs (7)MontrealMy pick: Carolina in 6Jimmy's: Carolina in 6Current: Monteal leads 2-1(3)New Jersy vs (6)New York RangersMy pick: NJ in 4Jimmy's: NJ in 4Current: NJ leads 3-0(4)Buffalo vs (5)

2006-04-26T10:57:00.000-07:00

Ho ho ho. 1 month since my last post.Well alot of things have happened over the past several weeks. I put in my two weeks notice and have 12 days left. School is winding down to the final two weeks and the NHL play offs have begun.Me and Jimmy started a pool between us. Looser has to buy the winner offical team merchandise, so this looks to be a good one.Here's a look at our picks and current NHL

2006-03-26T17:27:00.000-08:00

spring break is over =(. Had a few lans and good times.March Maddness is almost over. We're down to the final 4. Me and Jimmy are both down to 1 team left in UCLA. However I picked UCLA to win the national championship while Jimmy picked Uconn, who just lost to George Mason. The current standings are me 73 points and Jimmy with 61. Regardless of whether UCLA wins or loses, I won the pool.As

2006-02-21T21:40:00.000-08:00

=OArgh, first of all, I keep thinking I update this thing but I never really do. I just write something in my mind and think it goes on here. O well.So wuts happened.Sisters cancer has gone into remission meaning its stopped growing and she won the fight. She's still going to go through radiology just to make sure. But at least it looks like things have taken a turn for the better. Valentines

2006-01-30T00:00:00.000-08:00

So I went to see my sister today. The Chemotherapy failed so now they are going to have her to radiology. Which is pretty much like chemo x 1000. Its a last ditch effort. The final tumor is right next to her heart thus making it inoperable. Regardless of the situation Elizabeth still seems positive and me and dad took her to a nice breakfast. Its funny how we all joke about how redlands is

2006-01-26T22:53:00.000-08:00

2006, w00t w00t.So far this year has been ok. Soom good, some bad.Winter vacation ended. It was fun, alot of LANs and gaming. I also started playing RO thanks to Collin and Jimmy. Mostly Jimmy. And you don't need to say it, I will. YES there IS a parallel here to MS. Jimmy starts, then i start, and of course I start playing wayyyyy more than Jimmy, out lvl him, he stops and I'm still

2005-12-30T00:30:00.000-08:00

Christmas Pasted. Nothing amazing happened. Honestly, the most disappointing Christmas of my life. Quiet. I really don't know whats wrong with me but I just don't feel well. I'm not physicaly sick, but im emotionally drained. I seriously could careless about what happens to me and I don't feel any need to try to do something about it. I'm tired and its my turn to sit and wait for it to come

2005-12-24T23:39:00.000-08:00

So my birthday passed. 20 years old now. I don't feel it at all. I still feel like im 14 or something >_<. We had a few lans. Great fun. I still want to have a 10 person lan. 5 v 5 DOTA!!!!Me and my dad had a great talk. I guess he's right. I've played all my cards and I came up with nothing. Basicly, I have to wait for her to come to me. Don't like it, but thats all I can do, sit and

2005-12-20T00:51:00.000-08:00

I just don't care any more.Good job.You all accomplished your goal.