Nostalgic Moments
"Sentimentality is the only sentiment that rubs you up the wrong way."
This past weekend nothing much happened. I shot some pool. Did some reading. Played ALOT of dota and really sat on my ass alot. Basicly, i wasted the past 3 days of my life. Ouch! I better cut back on my gaming and really focus on reaching my goals.
Dallas beat Washington 27-10. The defense played well and the offense clicked but there were still alot of mistakes. TO also broke a finger. At least we have a bye next week so hopefully he can get back to 100%.
Dallas is now 1-1.
I'm also looking for someone to help me practice my salsa, but unfortunatly there's no one around here. All the people who have offered don't live in southern cali. I guess I'll just have to continue practicing in the mirror. This class has been really great though, the moves are simple yet they look great. We're starting to getting into more complex moves now which involve crossing hands and more spins. I'm also slowly learning to lead, at first I was really really gentle but now I've become alot more bossy and I've learned to use my hands to help direct the girl and dictate what happens.
I've also almost finished posting all my pictures, I have a few albums left and like I've noted before I will put up links here for those non-facebookers.
These past few day's I've been taking walks around Irvine. I even happen to go past Rex, who lived next door to me my freshman year at UCI. We didn't say anthing but he did look at me. I wonder what he was doing on my side of Irvine. While on my walks I can't help but remember small events that happened with people there. Jon's house, Adi's house, Theresa's house, the parking spot out side my house, Heritage Park, University Park, etc etc. It's weird how its just automatic for me to remember events from years ago. I have probably one of the worst memories yet somehow I remember all these little events like they were yesterday. I can't help but smile when I think about them, yet at the same time it saddens me a bit to know that they are gone along with many of the people in them. The people aren't dead of course and some still live relatively close, but times have changed, and so have people. Change is inevitable, regardless of whether you want it to happen or now, it will. The only question is if it's for better or worse. I'd like to be positive and say for better and recent events will even say things are better, but at the same time, I feel like they aren't. The world certainly doesn't seem much better, there's still a war, there's still a horrific government in this country. Here at home, some people who I didn't expect to do certain things surprised me. I can't say I was completely surprised but it deffinatly caught me off guard. It's funny how people say they will never change and then they do, and then they insist they haven't. We've all changed. These past 2 years have been insane for me, I was humbled by UCI, had to learn to function on my own with out a special someone, became more self aware and had to slowly learn to refocus my life. I'd have to say I've changed quite a bit, but I still believe that the core me is still there and that I still have my original believes and values, it's more that my attitudes have changed.
After Elizabeth posted her Johari Window I was tempted to one for myself but I had already done one in my communications class and I had already asked people what they percieved me as. The fact is that I'm already pretty self aware of my personality and that I act really different to different people so to do a Johari Window would be maddness since everyone would have different ideas of my traits and personality. There is some over lap but alot of differences too. I've always acted differently to different people because I thought that "persona" was what would make me look cool to that person to a degree. I've been dishonest about who I am to alot of people and for that I'm sorry, it was just some mental defense system to block people out. Now that I'm aware of that I've been working to just being my self and not try to play a roll.
On a side note, I got the feeling like Elizabeth was upset with me because I had vocalized that I felt that 6 choices we're enough on her Johari Window. She hadn't really spoken to me the past few days and I assumed she was upset. Then I remembered to use Perception Checking.
1. Describe the situtation
Elizabeth hasn't spoken to me.
2. Reason why
A. She's mad
B. She's been busy
C. We've gone long periods before with out talking for no real reason
3. Examine the situation
She had to spend all of saturday with band and the football game, also she's been busy with lots of school work.
So thus I realized that I was merely jumping to conclusions. Now alot of people who read this probably think it's dumb, but really I just to conclusions ALL THE TIME. I'm a person of absolutes and if something happens my mind imediatly jumps to a reason, usually a negative one. Now I'm learning to control where my mind goes and tools like Perception Checking are really helping me out. I always want to use more "I" statements.
And finally, Training Camp for the Sharks began this weekend. The NHL season will start in 2 weeks. Here are some pictures from their pratices.
Goalie Toskala
Cheechoo, who last year won the "Rocket" Richard Trophy by scoring the most goals in the NHL.
Those blood red sweaters are so damn sexy. If you buy me one you'll be my hero for life!
- W. Somerset Maguham
This past weekend nothing much happened. I shot some pool. Did some reading. Played ALOT of dota and really sat on my ass alot. Basicly, i wasted the past 3 days of my life. Ouch! I better cut back on my gaming and really focus on reaching my goals.
Dallas beat Washington 27-10. The defense played well and the offense clicked but there were still alot of mistakes. TO also broke a finger. At least we have a bye next week so hopefully he can get back to 100%.
Dallas is now 1-1.
I'm also looking for someone to help me practice my salsa, but unfortunatly there's no one around here. All the people who have offered don't live in southern cali. I guess I'll just have to continue practicing in the mirror. This class has been really great though, the moves are simple yet they look great. We're starting to getting into more complex moves now which involve crossing hands and more spins. I'm also slowly learning to lead, at first I was really really gentle but now I've become alot more bossy and I've learned to use my hands to help direct the girl and dictate what happens.
I've also almost finished posting all my pictures, I have a few albums left and like I've noted before I will put up links here for those non-facebookers.
These past few day's I've been taking walks around Irvine. I even happen to go past Rex, who lived next door to me my freshman year at UCI. We didn't say anthing but he did look at me. I wonder what he was doing on my side of Irvine. While on my walks I can't help but remember small events that happened with people there. Jon's house, Adi's house, Theresa's house, the parking spot out side my house, Heritage Park, University Park, etc etc. It's weird how its just automatic for me to remember events from years ago. I have probably one of the worst memories yet somehow I remember all these little events like they were yesterday. I can't help but smile when I think about them, yet at the same time it saddens me a bit to know that they are gone along with many of the people in them. The people aren't dead of course and some still live relatively close, but times have changed, and so have people. Change is inevitable, regardless of whether you want it to happen or now, it will. The only question is if it's for better or worse. I'd like to be positive and say for better and recent events will even say things are better, but at the same time, I feel like they aren't. The world certainly doesn't seem much better, there's still a war, there's still a horrific government in this country. Here at home, some people who I didn't expect to do certain things surprised me. I can't say I was completely surprised but it deffinatly caught me off guard. It's funny how people say they will never change and then they do, and then they insist they haven't. We've all changed. These past 2 years have been insane for me, I was humbled by UCI, had to learn to function on my own with out a special someone, became more self aware and had to slowly learn to refocus my life. I'd have to say I've changed quite a bit, but I still believe that the core me is still there and that I still have my original believes and values, it's more that my attitudes have changed.
After Elizabeth posted her Johari Window I was tempted to one for myself but I had already done one in my communications class and I had already asked people what they percieved me as. The fact is that I'm already pretty self aware of my personality and that I act really different to different people so to do a Johari Window would be maddness since everyone would have different ideas of my traits and personality. There is some over lap but alot of differences too. I've always acted differently to different people because I thought that "persona" was what would make me look cool to that person to a degree. I've been dishonest about who I am to alot of people and for that I'm sorry, it was just some mental defense system to block people out. Now that I'm aware of that I've been working to just being my self and not try to play a roll.
On a side note, I got the feeling like Elizabeth was upset with me because I had vocalized that I felt that 6 choices we're enough on her Johari Window. She hadn't really spoken to me the past few days and I assumed she was upset. Then I remembered to use Perception Checking.
1. Describe the situtation
Elizabeth hasn't spoken to me.
2. Reason why
A. She's mad
B. She's been busy
C. We've gone long periods before with out talking for no real reason
3. Examine the situation
She had to spend all of saturday with band and the football game, also she's been busy with lots of school work.
So thus I realized that I was merely jumping to conclusions. Now alot of people who read this probably think it's dumb, but really I just to conclusions ALL THE TIME. I'm a person of absolutes and if something happens my mind imediatly jumps to a reason, usually a negative one. Now I'm learning to control where my mind goes and tools like Perception Checking are really helping me out. I always want to use more "I" statements.
And finally, Training Camp for the Sharks began this weekend. The NHL season will start in 2 weeks. Here are some pictures from their pratices.
Goalie Toskala
Cheechoo, who last year won the "Rocket" Richard Trophy by scoring the most goals in the NHL.
Those blood red sweaters are so damn sexy. If you buy me one you'll be my hero for life!
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