You'll Never Leave My Heart / California Bloodlines

I never thought I'd be a man that cares just like I do
I knew that when I first saw you, my doubting days were through
u got a certain something that I never saw before
I knew it was for real when u stepped in through that door

And when the day does come when you and I depart
You'll be the one who's leaving cause you'll never leave my heart
And when the day does come when you and I depart
You'll be the one who's leaving cause you'll never leave my heart

There'll always be a prideful man who believe he's got the strength
But you don't have to kiss him cause I'll go to any length
To be the man you want at night, I'll get better wait and see
You can't pick an apple till the seed becomes a tree

And when the day does come when you and I depart
You'll be the one who's leaving cause you'll never leave my heart
And when the day does come when you and I depart
You'll be the one who's leaving cause you'll never leave my heart

I know you like to get undressed and I'll be there when I can
But please don't go on whoring or I won't be no law man
Every cheating bastard who takes you to his bed
Wish he'd keep his britches on when he's lying full of lead

I don't care what you do, I don't care what you say
There's a truth inside of you somewhere that doesn't have to play
At being scared and lonely, acting so darn loose
Screwing who you want to and believing you're excused

And when the day does come when you and I depart
You'll be the one who's leaving cause you'll never leave my heart
And when the day does come when you and I depart
You'll be the one who's leaving cause you'll never leave my heart


So I guess a lot has happened since I last posted. I got into CSUF and am taking 3 classes there, Accounting, Sociology 101 and US History. Pretty easy courses so far and my schedule worked out so I only have class Tues, Wed and Thur. The main problem though being that on Tues I have a class from 7-8:15 am and then an 8 hour break till my next class at 4 pm. It's a bit ridiculous but I've been able to find activities to fill my time such as napping in my car, hanging out in the computer lab, meeting up with friends like Gabby or going to Dice House, a local card store, to play magic.

Aside from school, Elizabeth and I broke up on August 6th. It's been a month but we're still close. We talk just about everyday and as she put it, we're best friends. It's been a bumpy ride for her in Kansas so far and we miss each other dearly. There's an understanding that if she hadn't left for Kansas, we'd still be together. It sucks how something like her moving away would end up being the end of our relationship. It saddens me a little but I am grateful for what we had. It was the best relationship one could ask for. We had so many great moments and complimented each other in so many ways. Elizabeth will always be a special person to me and something tells me that this may not be the final chapter for us.

In the mean time I've been meeting up with all the girls I've neglected this past year. It's been interesting to see where they are all at in their lives. Most of them now have boyfriends, but their bf's for the most part are pretty average if not sub-average. It seems ludicrous how many of these guys take their girls for granted and that these girls would settle for these losers. It boggles the mind but I guess good men are in short supply these days. What happened to having a good sense of humor? Treating your girl with respect? Communicating? Or just plain caring about the upkeep of your relationship. I just don't get how people can be so oblivious to such simple things that can shred a relationship. I hope for their sake that either these guys put their act together or the girls find someone of a higher caliber.

Planning has begun for our annual winter road trip, this year we're off to San Fran. It looks like it'll be happening at the end of December. So far we've planned to get some tickets to a Sharks game when they play the Capitals. It should be a great game and I can't wait to see my first hockey game in the Shark tank. I'll need to start looking into hotels as well as some other activities we can par take in. It should be a very good trip though.

On a related note the hockey season will finally be starting soon!! I am excited about how the Sharks will preform this year. There's little doubt about them doing well and should win another pacific title. As far as the playoffs go though, since predictions make no difference if your wrong but are awesome when your right, I'm predicting the Sharks will win the Stanley Cup this year!!! I can dream right =P

Since I'm single, I might just update this more often, but I always say that and then never do so stay tuned!



Had I been born in New York City
A New York City girl I'd know
Workin' in the concrete, not the sunlight
Livin' in the New York rain and snow

Oh, there's California Bloodlines in my heart
And a California woman in my song
Oh, there's California Bloodlines in my heart
And a California heartbeat in my soul

And just to think I might have never known you
If I had lived my life in Tennessee
But I really could have never let that happen
For you and California are in me

Oh, there's California Bloodlines in my heart
And a California woman in my song
Oh, there's California Bloodlines in my heart
And a California heartbeat in my soul

Have you wondered where we were before we were born
Rollin' 'round the heavens like a song
I know it's then I saw the big Sierras
Saw a California sunrise comin' on

Oh, there's California Bloodlines in my heart
And a California woman in my song
Oh, there's California Bloodlines in my heart
And a California heartbeat in my soul

Oh, there's California Bloodlines in my heart
And a California woman in my song
Oh, there's California Bloodlines in my heart
And a California heartbeat in my soul



Good night and sweet dreams.

All My Life / Live Your Life

[Verse 1 - Jay Rock]
I was on the block right, wasn't in my right mind
Just a young nigga, hustlin', tryna get mines
Movin' with the 9 double m
Niggas like "You don't really wanna fuck with him"
Yeah, young teenager, 'fatuated with paper
Yeah I had to get it, cause momma, she wasn't able
Black and white TV set, no cable
Forties in the fridge, chicken noodles on the table
I wasn't born with a silver spoon
Child of the ghetto, raised off a different tune
Watchin' Bob Barker in my living room
If "The Price Was Right", I could get you a whole living room
Yeah, them was my gutter ways back in the gutter days
No education, but the gutter pays
Through it all came a long way
From sellin' the yay', fist fights to gun play
Back then

[Chorus]
In the Ghetto, Ghetto, G-Ghetto
Ghetto, Ghetto, G-Ghetto
I comes from the bottom but now I'm on top
I ain't nothing going to stop me yo
I comes from the Ghetto, Ghetto, G-Ghetto
Where all of my niggas, all of my niggas,
All of my niggas roll up in the spot
In the Ghetto, Ghetto..

[Verse 2 - Lil Wayne]
Yeah
Times is torn as it is
That's why I got guns, and my guns got kids
That's why I be goin' so tough on them hoes
I play my own hand, I don't shuffle or fold
Fuck wit a nigga, let go fuck wit some hoes
Hear them bitches screamin' like they stuck in a hole
I am not a deamon, but was once a lost soul
'Til I found myself a block away from the cross road
I have, outgrown the fishbowl
And I'm on my feet like a fuckin insole
Yeah it may hurt like a fuckin' left no
But it's "fuck the world", like a fuckin nympho
And we spend dough, cause we make more
And I make sure, when I say so
It's Jay Rock and Weezy, need I say more
Closeline the beat tear, DB I say flow
Yeah

[Chorus]
In the Ghetto, Ghetto, G-Ghetto
Ghetto, Ghetto, G-Ghetto
I comes from the bottom but now I'm on top
I ain't nothing going to stop me yo
I comes from the Ghetto, Ghetto, G-Ghetto
Where all of my niggas, all of my niggas,
All of my niggas roll up in the spot
In the Ghetto, Ghetto..

[Verse 3 - Jay Rock]
Jay Rock, still that same O.G.
I ain't tryna see the grave or the penitentary
Everyday living, tryna stay on my feet
Even though a nigga paid, but my heart in the streets
See my dogs I'm a beast, so hard on these beats
So my family can eat, I'll be damned if I see
No income, here come Jay Rock, they know crack music
Drug kingpin flow, oh

[Lil Wayne]
Kingpin hoe, need I say more
Your family could die, when I say go (go)
Green light green light, whatcha green like?
Before ya sign me up, get the scene right
And I just happen to fan it when I'm being nice
Cause drivin' slow in the Lam', it doesn't seem right
Yeah, and I remember them long nights
Livin' the wrong life, but I made that wrong right
Weezy!

[Bridge]
All the struggling
All it does is keep my hustling, oh my

[Chorus]
In the Ghetto, Ghetto, G-Ghetto
Ghetto, Ghetto, G-Ghetto
I comes from the bottom but now I'm on top
I ain't nothing going to stop me yo
I comes from the Ghetto, Ghetto, G-Ghetto
Where all of my niggas, all of my niggas,
All of my niggas roll up in the spot
In the Ghetto, Ghetto..

~All my Life by Jay Rock feat. Lil Wayne


Last week was Phi Rho Pi, the national debate tournament. It was a week+ of debate and speeches. In the end, I came out with a gold medal in parliamentary debate taking out the top team in the nation from Moorpark, Justin Harris and Chris Maciel. I also got a silver in NFA-LD and a bronze in Extemp. It was a great week. I also got to go to Powells bookstore and got 150$ worth of books. It's an amazing warehouse of books the size of a city block. They have such a huge range of books in both new and used form. I spent 4 hours in just the politics and econ section. I also got to tour the city a bit with Jenn. It's a pretty city and I really liked it. Their metro rail is free in the city and there is no sales tax. It's pretty awesome.

My fantasy hockey season is over. I finished 3rd in the Crunk Kings of Hockey behind Jimmy and Zach. I finished 1st in my PIM only league, Rules of Engagement and I finished 1st in my head to head league, Dudes on Hockey. Overall it was a pretty epic fantasy season for me. The Sharks won the president trophy and get a 1st round match up vs the Ducks. Hopefully they can make it past them.

School has been cool. Got an A in my excel class and I have a B in the rest. I'm still unsure of where I will go to school next year. Hopefully either CSULB or CSUFullerton. We'll just have to wait and see.

Girls, girls, girls. Elizabeth and I have been great. We just celebrated our 1 year anniversary. Unfortunately due to debates, I missed being there for the 1 year anniversary, her birthday and valentines day this year. Ouch! Luckily I got her a lot of presents to help make up for things. But aside from how great things have been going with Elizabeth, I have a bunch of other girls that are interested in me and I can't help but wonder if it's just because I have a personality that is flirtatious. I wasn't intentionally trying to lead them on, but I think I have the natural ability to pull women to me. I was never really confidant in my ability to attract women but slowly over the past couple of years I've become much more proficient at it. Now I have a bunch of great women as friends, but I can tell they are also attracted to me and want more. But I can't give it to them. Neda, Jenn, etc. I love having them as friends and to be honest, a part of me would like to try something. But I know what I have is too amazing to walk away from. I'm happy with Elizabeth and that's all you could ask for. What becomes problematic is that I think I could be happy with any number of these women. Or I could at least make them very happy. Happier than status quo, but that isn't my burden. I have an obligation to the women I love. I'm sticking to what I got but I hope I don't lose their friendships. I've been there before with Amanda and it is a terrible feeling to lose someone that awesome and close.


Good night and sweet dreams.




Ma ya hee, ma ya haa (Ay)
Ma ha hoo, ma ya ha ha
Ma ya hee, ma ya haa (It's a special what's haapnin' to all my)
Ma ha hoo, ma ya ha ha (All my soldiers over there in Iraq)

Ma ya hee, ma ya haa ('Errbody right here)
Ma ha hoo, ma ya ha ha (What you need to do is be thankful for the life you got, know what I'm saying?)
Ma ya hee, ma ya haa (Stop looking at what you ain't got and start being thankful for what you do got)
Ma ha hoo, ma ya ha ha (Let's give it to 'em, baby girl!)

(Rihanna):
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
Instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take you.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life

(T.I.):
Nevermind what haters say, ignore them 'til they fade away.
Amazing they ungrateful after all the games I gave away.
Safe to say I payed the way, for you cats to get paid today.
You still be wasting days away, nah had I never saved the day.
Consider them my protégé, homage I think they should pay.
Instead of being gracious, they violated in a major way.
I never been a hater still I love them, yeah I graze the way.
Some say they so yay and no they couldn't even work on Labor day.
It aint that they black or white, their hands of area in shades of grey.
I'm West side anyway, even if I left the day it fades away.
Some move away to make a way not move away cause they afraid.
I'll go back to the hood and all you ever did was take away.
I pray for patience but they make me want to face away.
Like I once made them scream, now I could make them plead their case away.
Been thuggin' all my life, can't say I don't deserve to take a break.
If you ever see me catch a case, and watch my future fade away.

(Rihanna):
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take you.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life.

(T.I.):
I'm the opposite of moderate, immaculately polished with the spirit of a hustler and the swagger of a college kid.
Allergic to the counterfeit, impartial to the politics.
Articulate but still would grab a nigga by the collar quick.
Whoever had problems, they reckoncile they just holla 'tip.
If that don't work and just fails, then turn around and follow 'tip.
I got love for the game but ay I'm not in love with all of it.
I do without the fame and the rappers nowadays are comedy.
The hootin' and the hollerin', back and forth with the arguing.
Where you from, who you know, what you make and what kind of car you in.
Seems as though you lost sight of whats important when depositing
your checks into your bank account, and you're about poverted.
Your values is a disarrayed, prioritized are horribly.
Unhappy with the riches cause you piss poor morraly.
Ignoring all prior advice and fore warning.
And we might be full of ourselves all of a sudden aren't we?

(Rihanna):
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take you.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)

(Rhiana):
Got everybody watchin what I do
Come walk in my shoes
And see the way I'm livin if you really want to
Got my mind on my money
And I'm not goin nowhere
So keep on gettin your paper
And keep on climbing
Look in the mirror and keep on shining
Till the game ends, till the clock stops
We gon' post up on the top spot
Livin the life, the life
In a brand new city got my whole team with me
The life, my life
I do what I wanna do
I'm livin my life, my life
I will never lose, I'm livin my life, my life
And I'm not stopping

So live your life!

(Rihanna):
You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take you.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
Just living my life (ay), my life (oh), my life (ay), my life (oh)
So live your life.!!