Running Up That Hill
It doesn't hurt me.
You wanna feel how it feels?
You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
You wanna hear about the deal I'm making?
You
You and me
And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could
You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There is thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?
You,
You and me,
You and me won't be unhappy.
And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building,
If I only could
'C'mon, baby, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let me steal this moment from you now.
C'mon, angel, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let's exchange the experience
And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill
-Running Up That Hill by Placebo
It's been a while since I've updated. Let's recap!
Sports:
Well the cowboys season is over. ROMO WHY!?!?!? Parcells has retired. NOOOOOO. We'll see how next season goes.
The Sharks have been on a roll and are now 2 points behind Anaheim. It's going to be sweet to see how this plays out. They're 8-2-0 in their last 10 games including a 5-1 win over Jimmy's Oilers. w00t.
School:
Well schools started. Pretty good so far.
business: Chill teacher. Pretty fun.
Legal environment: Pretty easy. Kinda boring.
Drawing: Really cool to learn how to do it. My drawings are coming out 100x better than before
Math: ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Debate: Very fun, learning a lot, cool ppl in the class.
Dance: Fun.
Overall my classes are pretty good so far.
Other stuff:
Nothing really. Lives been kind of bland. See my friends every now and then but for the most part nothing great has happened the past couple of weeks. I've basically been watching a ton of YouTube and playing MS.
I've been spending a lot of time sitting around mulling things over. Listening to songs trying to understand my life and it's surroundings. It's amazing where your mind can go when you just zone out.
I've been tripping out the past couple of days thinking about my past. I've been to China 5 times, South East Asia, Western Europe. I've seen amazing things, met people from around the world. I've done so much, yet have only scratched the surface of what this world has to offer. It's truly amazing how small we are.
Yet at the same time, small things that happen around us have huge effects. It's weird when you try to gauge what is significant and what isn't. Who is significant and who isn't. People pass through our lives everyday. Friends come and go, loved ones are born and pass away. Who do you try to hold on to, and who do you let go. It's even harder when there are people who come in, stir things up, leave, only to return again one day.
I've been lucky in life, I say this all the time, I've done and seen more than most people can say. But what has truly defined my life, is the people in it. My last trip was probably my most memorable, not because of how long I was there or how many things I bought or saw, but because of the people I spent the time with. They are the ones that made the trip special.
When ever I reflect on the past I always think of the people first.
Elementary school:
Josh Alves(my best friend at the time)
Ryan, Matt, Sean, Ben, Katie, Megan, Michelle, Melisa(my neighbors, we played sports on the street, it was great)
and of course Brittany
It's weird how she was probably the biggest part of my elementary school life yet my memories of her are the most fuzzy. I remember her smile, perfect white teeth, her long blond hair and how she played with it, her freckles and these sky blue eyes. I remember her hugs, they were rare and only when we were alone. I can't explain them, just like I can't explain any good hug, but there is something about a good hug that makes you feel like you and that person are the only ones that matter. That the rest of the world is insignificant and that only this moment is real, everything else is just imagined. I spent a ton of time with her, yet I only remember bits and pieces. I wonder what she's doing now...
I'm also going to throw Jimmy in here as well. We actually met at one of Josh's parties. I gave him and his sister rides to Chinese school, but we didn't talk much. We were both kind of shy. We didn't really become good friends till high school. Since then we've become best friends. I consider my self fortunate to have such a great friend in Jimmy, he really is great friend.
Middle School:
Jonnie and Sean
Collin, Duncan and Jon
High School:
Too many to even list. When I look back it feels like it was 10 years long. Thousands of memories. But of course most of them are centered around one person.
Lori.
UCI to now:
Luis
Amanda
Andrea
There is also two more people who have had impact on my entire life. My mom and dad.
There is one thing I feel incommon with all these people, I felt like they all had a sense of direction, like they all knew where they were going. One way or another, good or bad, they could feel it. Or at least I could feel it. But when I look in a mirror, I only see a fog. Aimlessly wandering this earth I have yet to learn what my destiny is. Maybe it's easier to look from the outside, for me to look at other people and say, "yes they are going in X direction" is easy, while they them selves may not even be aware of it. But of course, it's only a guess. Does anyone really know where we are going? Maybe some, those who truly know what they want in life and act to reach it. But for most they sit and wait, wait for destiny.
I guess that's what I've been doing for 21 years. Buying lotto tickets, playing games, sleeping in, skipping class. Waiting for life, to bring me something amazing. It has, I would be lying if I said I haven't had an awesome life so far. Yet I want something more. I want her. That woman who will fill that void. When I go to bed I turn to my side, looking at the empty half of my bed. I think of when there was a warm body there. A woman who told me she loved me, who I could hold at night and feel the pulse of her breathing. A smiling face I would wake up to. A hot breakfast in the foggy cold mornings at UNI. She embodied everything I wanted in life. But she wasn't it.
Before her, and ever since. I have been looking for that. Sometimes I think I find it, but I'm always wrong it seems. LEAD, nothing but false hopes and dreams. It's ironic how the most important thing to me is the one area in which I am unlucky. I would gladly trade all my other luck to find her.
So with that, I've started to take control. I'm tired of sitting back on my heels and waiting for her to come. So I've started a new project. To meet a few new women every week. It's been interesting so far. We'll see how this plays out.
I've also started to think about what I am really looking for in a woman. I consider my self pretty open to any woman really, but it's probably a good idea to set some standards.
First, physical looks don't really matter to me. I know, some of you are like, YOU ARE LYING. But seriously, have you look at all the women I've liked. Can anyone tell me something they have in common??? 6'3" blue eyed blond to 5'0" Mexican. Yea, I didn't think so. I will say this, I do love boobs. HOORAY FOR BOOBS!
Personality, Hobbies, Interests:
Sports fan
Up on History and Current events
Cares for fellow man
Loves playing video games
Wants kids
Enjoys going out
Loves music of all kinds
Likes staying up late
Enjoys nature
Likes physical activities (NO I DONT MEAN SEX, but yes must love sex too)
Has a great sense of humor
Is strong willed
Good parent qualities
Fast learner
Quick thinker
Honesty and Loyalty
Likes to sometimes sit and enjoy a quiet moment
That's my list as of now. I'll add more as I go along here. So if you know any women who meet these qualifications, give them my info. =D
Time to make that deal with God
And start running up that hill...
You wanna feel how it feels?
You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
You wanna hear about the deal I'm making?
You
You and me
And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could
You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I'm tearing you asunder.
There is thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?
You,
You and me,
You and me won't be unhappy.
And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building,
If I only could
'C'mon, baby, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let me steal this moment from you now.
C'mon, angel, c'mon, c'mon, darling,
Let's exchange the experience
And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill
-Running Up That Hill by Placebo
It's been a while since I've updated. Let's recap!
Sports:
Well the cowboys season is over. ROMO WHY!?!?!? Parcells has retired. NOOOOOO. We'll see how next season goes.
The Sharks have been on a roll and are now 2 points behind Anaheim. It's going to be sweet to see how this plays out. They're 8-2-0 in their last 10 games including a 5-1 win over Jimmy's Oilers. w00t.
School:
Well schools started. Pretty good so far.
business: Chill teacher. Pretty fun.
Legal environment: Pretty easy. Kinda boring.
Drawing: Really cool to learn how to do it. My drawings are coming out 100x better than before
Math: ZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Debate: Very fun, learning a lot, cool ppl in the class.
Dance: Fun.
Overall my classes are pretty good so far.
Other stuff:
Nothing really. Lives been kind of bland. See my friends every now and then but for the most part nothing great has happened the past couple of weeks. I've basically been watching a ton of YouTube and playing MS.
I've been spending a lot of time sitting around mulling things over. Listening to songs trying to understand my life and it's surroundings. It's amazing where your mind can go when you just zone out.
I've been tripping out the past couple of days thinking about my past. I've been to China 5 times, South East Asia, Western Europe. I've seen amazing things, met people from around the world. I've done so much, yet have only scratched the surface of what this world has to offer. It's truly amazing how small we are.
Yet at the same time, small things that happen around us have huge effects. It's weird when you try to gauge what is significant and what isn't. Who is significant and who isn't. People pass through our lives everyday. Friends come and go, loved ones are born and pass away. Who do you try to hold on to, and who do you let go. It's even harder when there are people who come in, stir things up, leave, only to return again one day.
I've been lucky in life, I say this all the time, I've done and seen more than most people can say. But what has truly defined my life, is the people in it. My last trip was probably my most memorable, not because of how long I was there or how many things I bought or saw, but because of the people I spent the time with. They are the ones that made the trip special.
When ever I reflect on the past I always think of the people first.
Elementary school:
Josh Alves(my best friend at the time)
Ryan, Matt, Sean, Ben, Katie, Megan, Michelle, Melisa(my neighbors, we played sports on the street, it was great)
and of course Brittany
It's weird how she was probably the biggest part of my elementary school life yet my memories of her are the most fuzzy. I remember her smile, perfect white teeth, her long blond hair and how she played with it, her freckles and these sky blue eyes. I remember her hugs, they were rare and only when we were alone. I can't explain them, just like I can't explain any good hug, but there is something about a good hug that makes you feel like you and that person are the only ones that matter. That the rest of the world is insignificant and that only this moment is real, everything else is just imagined. I spent a ton of time with her, yet I only remember bits and pieces. I wonder what she's doing now...
I'm also going to throw Jimmy in here as well. We actually met at one of Josh's parties. I gave him and his sister rides to Chinese school, but we didn't talk much. We were both kind of shy. We didn't really become good friends till high school. Since then we've become best friends. I consider my self fortunate to have such a great friend in Jimmy, he really is great friend.
Middle School:
Jonnie and Sean
Collin, Duncan and Jon
High School:
Too many to even list. When I look back it feels like it was 10 years long. Thousands of memories. But of course most of them are centered around one person.
Lori.
UCI to now:
Luis
Amanda
Andrea
There is also two more people who have had impact on my entire life. My mom and dad.
There is one thing I feel incommon with all these people, I felt like they all had a sense of direction, like they all knew where they were going. One way or another, good or bad, they could feel it. Or at least I could feel it. But when I look in a mirror, I only see a fog. Aimlessly wandering this earth I have yet to learn what my destiny is. Maybe it's easier to look from the outside, for me to look at other people and say, "yes they are going in X direction" is easy, while they them selves may not even be aware of it. But of course, it's only a guess. Does anyone really know where we are going? Maybe some, those who truly know what they want in life and act to reach it. But for most they sit and wait, wait for destiny.
I guess that's what I've been doing for 21 years. Buying lotto tickets, playing games, sleeping in, skipping class. Waiting for life, to bring me something amazing. It has, I would be lying if I said I haven't had an awesome life so far. Yet I want something more. I want her. That woman who will fill that void. When I go to bed I turn to my side, looking at the empty half of my bed. I think of when there was a warm body there. A woman who told me she loved me, who I could hold at night and feel the pulse of her breathing. A smiling face I would wake up to. A hot breakfast in the foggy cold mornings at UNI. She embodied everything I wanted in life. But she wasn't it.
Before her, and ever since. I have been looking for that. Sometimes I think I find it, but I'm always wrong it seems. LEAD, nothing but false hopes and dreams. It's ironic how the most important thing to me is the one area in which I am unlucky. I would gladly trade all my other luck to find her.
So with that, I've started to take control. I'm tired of sitting back on my heels and waiting for her to come. So I've started a new project. To meet a few new women every week. It's been interesting so far. We'll see how this plays out.
I've also started to think about what I am really looking for in a woman. I consider my self pretty open to any woman really, but it's probably a good idea to set some standards.
First, physical looks don't really matter to me. I know, some of you are like, YOU ARE LYING. But seriously, have you look at all the women I've liked. Can anyone tell me something they have in common??? 6'3" blue eyed blond to 5'0" Mexican. Yea, I didn't think so. I will say this, I do love boobs. HOORAY FOR BOOBS!
Personality, Hobbies, Interests:
Sports fan
Up on History and Current events
Cares for fellow man
Loves playing video games
Wants kids
Enjoys going out
Loves music of all kinds
Likes staying up late
Enjoys nature
Likes physical activities (NO I DONT MEAN SEX, but yes must love sex too)
Has a great sense of humor
Is strong willed
Good parent qualities
Fast learner
Quick thinker
Honesty and Loyalty
Likes to sometimes sit and enjoy a quiet moment
That's my list as of now. I'll add more as I go along here. So if you know any women who meet these qualifications, give them my info. =D
Time to make that deal with God
And start running up that hill...
